'Can I forgive Gary? I don't know. It's caused us so much hurt... but I want to': Ten years after Gary Speed's shocking death, his widow Louise gives her first interview - and reveals how she and their sons are finally finding acceptance: Louise Speed is sitting on a grey sofa in her beautiful house near Chester. Her four-year-old Cockapoo Alfie (centre) is at her feet. Outside, just beyond the garden fence, two pheasants compete for territory. It is a beautiful late autumn day. But for Louise this is always the worst month of the year and this is always the very worst week. It is the anniversary of her husband Gary's (right) passing. Gary Speed, the boy-next-door footballer so many people inside and outside the game loved and admired. It has been ten years now and Louise has found a way to live again, to once again feel happiness and joy. There will never be answers explaining why Gary - manager of beloved Wales at the time - took his own life the morning after a night spent with friends in November 2011. But Louise has found a place to lodge the pain and the sheer sense of disbelief that inevitably endures. Usually at this time of year she disappears. Often to New York where her and Gary's two sons Eddie and Tommy (inset) are studying. But always somewhere. This year, though, she has chosen to sit down and talk.
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