Who is the real me?

Donut64

 Well on the tables and on the net Im Donut64 a risk taking extravert that believes he can improve himself, Donut64 is indeed a extended version of a part of Stephen Lodge (me) that passed away many years ago.
 
 In real life Im Stephen Lodge a man with a troubled mind full of self doubt, who feels the need to hide in the shaddows. I take medication for depression and often see a therapist as without this support and support of my family I would probably have given up on life as I feel my life ended sometime ago, I just failled to die.

 My therapist as surgested I need to merge the 2 parts of me back into the one person once more, she also asked me if I played poker live and not on line who would I be Stephen or Donut? That is a very intresting question dont you think? I dont really know the answer.

 I have read many a story of how Poker had been the ruin of people, could it really be that it is Poker that could pull my life back together?

 This was written by Donut64 with the help of Stephen Lodge! :P

 

MRBURNS4

Poker can be such a positive, yes it can ruin people but wernt the same people who unfortunately these are the same people who may have problems with any form of addiction to food to drink etc.

A troubled mind is a active mind and a inquisitive one, so therefore yes poker can be great to help you. 

Also do not forget depression is just a chemical imbalance in the brain and not this terriable thing that people talk about.

The thing is Stephen you are donut64 and he is you so does it matter how you would play live as long as you enjoyed it.

I hope you make it to one of the SPT as its such a great freindly days there that I actually think it would do you the world of good.

The answer also is probally I doubt most people are the same at the tables as they are in real life because at the tables you are looking for people to lie all the time, and look at Tikay as just one example, no matter what may be joked he does bluff so therefore lie at the tables but if you ask people who have met him they are full of priase of what a nice person he is.

Therefore dont worry use poker as a positive you already have lots of people who respect you on here and we have all enjoyed your sence of humour of the FB page

I personally dont like therapist as so many do so much more damage then good but if you do find help there thats brilliant but you have the best support group I have ever seen which is the sky comunity

Donut64

Thanks Mr Burns, I would have to get into my Donut64 Pesona to even turn up for a live event and as at the moment that part of me only exists online that is where the problem lies. I feel my therapist as helped me indentify where some have my problems have developed now I need to figure how to reverse some of those problems and find a new place in life, as at the moment my life is stuck in limbo.

Mohican

If poker is a positive in your life, then I think the pair of you should take full advantage of this and go play some poker. If it's possible, get yourself to the SPT this weekend and play the side events/sng's. There's plenty of people you know on the forum going. Arrange to meet one there if you're still unsure. If the SPT is not feasible, try your local casino or even your local pub poker league. Most, if not all players will help you out in the casino till you pick up the jist of things.
 Gd luck with this, hope it really is the start of something positive in your life.
regards,
Carl. (Mohican)

bignoise10

Couldnt agree more mr burns about the sky community been a great support group.That was pretty evident when I posted a while back about one of my own issues.Re donuts post,tis really good that you've spoke about this as a lot of folk spend most if not all their existence bottling things up which imho can be more of a ruin to them than the issue they have.Its amazin how takin your mind off things by talkin to folk or playin cards for example can help with dealing with things.Without knowing your exact situation I wont try to tell you to do this or that to help yourself.Just know that if talkin about things to others here might help then by all means do.I have had life experience of living with someone with depression and know the ups and downs associated with it.If you would like to pm me re this then by all means do so.I aint a specialist or anything like that but have the ability to listen which is pretty useful

Be good

Paul

MRBURNS4

In Response to Re: Who is the real me?:

Thanks Mr Burns, I would have to get into my Donut64 Pesona to even turn up for a live event and as at the moment that part of me only exists online that is where the problem lies. I feel my therapist as helped me indentify where some have my problems have developed now I need to figure how to reverse some of those problems and find a new place in life, as at the moment my life is stuck in limbo.
Posted by Donut64

Just a suggestion I had a very harsh time in my teenage years (which I wont go into in a open forum) to the extent it was very close to me not being here. 

I had and always will have a battle to not let what has happened not effect my life, of course we are who we are from our life experiances and yes it may look a mountain to climb and when you do get to the top you look around and see a taller moutain ahead but one day if climb enough they become hills.

I found great help to heal myself was to help other people who also had the same issues as me and been through simular. By helping others you grow stronger and though it was over 20yrs ago I will never forget 1 christmas card that simply said ty Jason if it wasnt for you I wouldnt be here to write this.

Now dont get me wrong it wasnt the feeling of helping that worked it was knowing no matter what ever else happened in my life from that point onwards me being here had made a difference and I have always drawn strenth on that.

As I think you know I also was lucky a few years ago to start to suffer with cronich medical conditions including cluster headaches and I like to think the reason I can deal with this fairly ok is what has I have been through in my life.

I could tell you more but you will have to come to a SPT to find out the rest

Tikay10

Mr Donut, you are very welcome to attend ANY SPT, even if you do not have a seat. Putting faces to screen-names is a great thing, it cements relationships.

Do try & get to one, I very much doubt you'll regret it.

FlyingDagg

Stephen I started playing live at SPT Blackpool and have now started playing at G Casino Bolton. I can't help you with your medical problems but can empathise as I have suffered from quite serious depression in the past and right now I have had a much milder depression, which doesn't qualify for medication, for about 2 years. If you ever would like to play live this is an open invitation to join me at G Casino. I know it would be a big step but if you ever fell the urge please contact me. And best wishes Stephen.

Donut64

 Thank you you have all been very kind.
 But Im regretting this thread as it is blurring my internet persona and the real me. Sorry I dont know why I posted it!
 Any chance of someone removing it, as I have made myself very uneasy! Sorry for the inconveniance!