Just to update on this even tho it actually has nothing to do with poker. It might help ppl understand why I act like such a nutter at SPTs.
I don't mind being open about this at all, inspired by others in this thread. It turns out I have GAD - General Anxiety Disorder. I have felt like I have butterflies in my stomach for as long as I can remember. When I'm sat in a room full of people playing poker, or some other similar situation, waves of heat and an irrepressible nervousness/anxiousness constantly pulsate through me and it's ****. To cure this when out and about I can't get alcohol, particularly sambuca, into me fast enough and then soon enough I'm a complete mess and frankly a joke.
I've spent my whole life thinking this was normal....now I know what the problem is I can start to deal with it. I'm quite excited about the challenge tbh.
Going forward I will be have to be teetotal. No drinking for me in Manchester this weekend. It's a big test after a routine of binge drinking since I was a teenager.
I will be taking beta blockers for the first time and will almost certainly be shipping the tournament. Sorry lads.
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Be happy people
and get help if your not people do care
Breathing space
0800 83 85 87
https://www.samaritans.org/
put your postcode in this one see what help is near you
https://www.nhs.uk/Service-Search/Mental-health-information-and-support/LocationSearch/330
hope this maybe helps someone
all the best
Edited think i left my soul on show long enough get help people
I hope you continue to get the help, courage and strength to fight the demons.
Please don't let them win.
Thank you for a very personal and emotional post
Good luck and good health.
I don't mind being open about this at all, inspired by others in this thread. It turns out I have GAD - General Anxiety Disorder. I have felt like I have butterflies in my stomach for as long as I can remember. When I'm sat in a room full of people playing poker, or some other similar situation, waves of heat and an irrepressible nervousness/anxiousness constantly pulsate through me and it's ****. To cure this when out and about I can't get alcohol, particularly sambuca, into me fast enough and then soon enough I'm a complete mess and frankly a joke.
I've spent my whole life thinking this was normal....now I know what the problem is I can start to deal with it. I'm quite excited about the challenge tbh.
Going forward I will be have to be teetotal. No drinking for me in Manchester this weekend. It's a big test after a routine of binge drinking since I was a teenager.
I will be taking beta blockers for the first time and will almost certainly be shipping the tournament. Sorry lads.