I had to have a little break from posting to gather myself, it's been a strange week for me.
Last weekend we had our son Alex round,he has fallen out with his ex mate who he was renting a room from,it has been a long time coming as every time he used to visit he had a tale to tell of aforementioned mate who seems to have small man syndrome.
Alex and his mum seem to fall out very quickly over the smallest thing,they both are very kind but just don't see eye to eye on certain things,I was in the kitchen trying to diffuse a situation on another part of this forum,2 folk who were in their own way doing their bit to help me in different ways but didn't see eye to eye when I heard voices raised in the front room. I remained calm and played the part of mediator,all the time this was happening time was rolling on and we had an appointment to view the car I had chosen.
We eventually rushed out to the dealership and proceeded to haggle and choose various trim etc when the strangest thing happened.....every emotion I had been suppressing came rising to the surface, I had to apologise and walk out of the showroom, walked around to compose myself, and figure out a way to explain when I returned. My wife was very understanding and didn't press the matter,she had already given reason for my sudden dissapearance.
I rang the hospital today to find out when my urgent scan would be as I haven't received a letter yet,the kind person on the other end of the phone tells me he has never heard of the specialist I have seen on my last 2 visits....he put me through to the oncology dept after much persuasion and I got an answerphone which I left a message on...
That was a tough week, Tom, & I completely get that bit where you were trying to diffuse a Forum situation.
As you & I both know, neither of the two posters were anything except well-intentioned, but sometimes, well-meaning stuff does not come across as intended.
Those that read between the lines well enough will have noted that "loss of self-dignity" thing, which you have mentioned time & time again. To my mind, that must be, in some ways, more painful, & difficult to bear, than your medical conditions. Discussing some of these matters with, say, a young female GP's Receptionist, must be really uncomfortable. If I were requested to, say, "bring a sample in", & then pass it to the Receptionist, I'd find the whole process dreadful.
It's these sort of things which must be so difficult for you. I'm quite sure I could not cope with all that.
i was diagnosed diabetic bout 18 months ago now,it got me abit down and i was constantly thinking a life of bland,im over that tho anyway i have to have 6 monthly check ups the 1st one went smoothly everything was spot on went for the next one the receptionist said there wasn,t one available so she got me one in another 6 months
so i goes for me blood test 6 months later goes to see the receptionist i say "i need to see the diabetic nurse" she says in a very condescending voice like i,.m some little kid "there is no available appointments available you will have to keep coming down or phone to see if we can get you in" so i says very sarcastically "ill tell you what YOU phone me when you have one available" and walks out.
1 hour later i get my results by text i mean wtf..everything was fine btw
As the good lady wife would say - My awesomeness has returned
When we moved in here in June, all the white goods were included and consequently guaranteed for at least a year, we have been having problems with the washing machine which doesn't pump the water out when it comes to spin cycle.wife took a morning off work to let the "engineer" in to do his bit. He didn't get off to a flying start by being late, then told my good lady the diagnostic check didn't show any faults,she said she would show him the problem by putting it on a full wash cycle, he wouldn't have it, she then asked him to get the machine out and look at the pump, he said they don't pay him for doing that ( huh) so he left with the wife saying " see you again next week". She rang the number to tell them what happened, no answer, she emailed a polite rantathon, they rang within 5 mins and we have someone coming tomorrow,
Awesomeness no1 - I went to the launderette for the first time since we were courting
Awesomeness no 2 - I gave up my Wednesday poker evening to help Alex move into the spare room.
Awesomeness no3 - I got an answer from hospital after much badgering and have an appointment next Saturday.
Awesomeness no4 - I get my new car next week ( that may be a bit sneaky saying I am awesome on this one)
Awesomeness no5 - I played my usual deep stack,bounty hunters, and pl08 tournaments last night, I won the £1 entry Pl08 and the £2 Deep stack
Re:washer - It wont be long before they don't even come out and do a diagnostic. They will check it remotely via the internet and if the "computer says no" probably wont send anyone to fix it.
Hi tom been wanting to speak to you for a wee while but I am really quite shy and embarrassed to be comparing my plight to yours but the thing is I seem to be able to relate to everything you write from dealing with hospitals and all the gubbins that brings sleep or the lack of it taking pills tablets and whatever else they fling at you I was sinking deeper and deeper into myself then I found sky poker and a light came on I use the site more for therapy than gambling sounds silly when I write it but hey ho best of luck in everything
Hi tom been wanting to speak to you for a wee while but I am really quite shy and embarrassed to be comparing my plight to yours but the thing is I seem to be able to relate to everything you write from dealing with hospitals and all the gubbins that brings sleep or the lack of it taking pills tablets and whatever else they fling at you I was sinking deeper and deeper into myself then I found sky poker and a light came on I use the site more for therapy than gambling sounds silly when I write it but hey ho best of luck in everything the not so good looking one weecheez (harry) Posted by weecheez1
Hi Harry, thank you for posting I really appreciate it. Really pleased for you to find enjoyment in Sky Poker. I too use it as an outlet, I play for fun also, I have been reading your posts and you come across as a nice friendly chap with a good sense of humour, laughter as they say is best medicine. How is the poker going? Good to see you have joined the notorious Outlaws they are a really friendly bunch of crazy folk
The pokers going good been sticking mostly to the dyms still making some basic mistakes but getting there just about to break the 500 point barrier which is amazing it will only happen in double points week spare fiver tomorrow woo hoo the outlaws thing is cool but I can't seem to find a list of who is in it
The pokers going good been sticking mostly to the dyms still making some basic mistakes but getting there just about to break the 500 point barrier which is amazing it will only happen in double points week spare fiver tomorrow woo hoo the outlaws thing is cool but I can't seem to find a list of who is in it Posted by weecheez1
Take a look at the list of folk who play DTD games, their team is posted by the alias., quite a few Outlaws play them - Apart from the big hitters like Jac35 for instance, he's usually busy doing A - playing mega dosh double your money, or B - "doing" his hair.
I have had quite a busy week, work is picking up at last and I went to do a couple of surveys. A really nice elderly lady who needs a replacement window was one, we got on really well. I love chatting about random stuff and am not concerned about meeting someone for the first time, we both agreed on the fact that I phones are a **** nightmare to use
My wife said that children and the elderly love me, I replied yes,it's the folk between ages 6 and 60 who I struggle with
I got my new car yesterday, posted the pic on my fb page, got a few comments, some nice ones, some pulling my leg, and my son told me that folk would be flagging me down for a haircut lol. It's a Citroen C1 - White with a light Blue roof, it comes pre programmed with loads of radio stations, gaydio being one,that will come in handy I suppose.
I won the £100 gtd Pl08 sometime this week, I forget which day, I got lucky about 5 times, one which sticks out is I had KKxx and there were 3 limpers , I pot it and get 2 callers, all the chips go in v the chip leader who strangely enough ( to me anyway) held AAxx, I was doomed until river K
We had to cancel our plans for the brother in law and his wife to come round for take away and pub quiz last night, my daughter has been taken into hospital, that are running tests for meningitis, they did a lumber puncture last night, poor girl.she works in a care home and seems to pick up d and v and all kinds of nastiness, she tells me they have rats running around, when she reported it the boss said " what do you expect, we are near a field" , rather disturbing comment.....
I have had quite a busy week, work is picking up at last and I went to do a couple of surveys. A really nice elderly lady who needs a replacement window was one, we got on really well. I love chatting about random stuff and am not concerned about meeting someone for the first time, we both agreed on the fact that I phones are a **** nightmare to use My wife said that children and the elderly love me, I replied yes,it's the folk between ages 6 and 60 who I struggle with I got my new car yesterday, posted the pic on my fb page, got a few comments, some nice ones, some pulling my leg, and my son told me that folk would be flagging me down for a haircut lol. It's a Citroen C1 - White with a light Blue roof, it comes pre programmed with loads of radio stations, gaydio being one,that will come in handy I suppose. I won the £100 gtd Pl08 sometime this week, I forget which day, I got lucky about 5 times, one which sticks out is I had KKxx and there were 3 limpers , I pot it and get 2 callers, all the chips go in v the chip leader who strangely enough ( to me anyway) held AAxx, I was doomed until river K We had to cancel our plans for the brother in law and his wife to come round for take away and pub quiz last night, my daughter has been taken into hospital, that are running tests for meningitis, they did a lumber puncture last night, poor girl.she works in a care home and seems to pick up d and v and all kinds of nastiness, she tells me they have rats running around, when she reported it the boss said " what do you expect, we are near a field" , rather disturbing comment..... Posted by tomgoodun
Make sure they check for leptospirosis/Weil's Disease. Horrible stuff and a real risk where rats are found.
Hi Tom, I'm a long time lurker and just wanted to wish you and your family all the best. I hope your daughter makes a speedy recovery. As if you all hadn't got enough to cope with. Congratulations on the PLO8 win. All the best. Posted by dragon1964
Thanks my good man, hope you are well. Good luck on the felt.
My daughter is out of hospital and slowly getting better, thankfully she wasn't diagnosed with meningitis.
Elsewhere, on another forum I have been giving my point of view on this site, there are quite a few posters on there who believe it's rigged, that there are folk here who have the ability to press a doom switch, and if someone wins a tournament more than once there is something dodgy going on.
I should have known better than to comment on a thread on there which was moaning about the latest freeroll which was given by sky by way of apology for last Week when the site was suffering problems, the comments aimed at me were " you must work for sky" etc etc, " shut up we don't want to hear you are a bum licker" and so on and so forth.
I tried to remain calm and reasonable, but it is really really difficult when some folk are so blinkered and have such a warped sense of reality I begin to doubt in my ability to have a reasoned debate.
The next day I felt awful at work, I had my hospital appointment thinking why do I get involved in these things, I know there are some folk who you cannot reason with, but I really would like to hope that folk can see others point of view without resorting to personal attacks ...esp about a **** freeroll on a poker site for gawd sake.
I hope to learn from this experience and be more mindful of my own needs.
My latest appointment at the hospital was a bit of an eye opener for me, apparently you have to drink lots of water through the day to keep your body balance, " So Tom, how much water do you drink on a daily basis? " Ermmmm well I have about 6 cup full with a tea bag and some milk and sugar in, how does that not count??
He gave me a list of stuff that may be causing my bodily function issues, it read like my normal diet....agh.
My good lady has purchased bottles of water and caffeine free tea bags ( allowed 2 cups a day) I came home from work and bragged to her I had managed to drink a whole bottle of water today, she answered " just the one? Did you not listen, you are supposed to have one in he morning and one in the afternoon "....sigh.
Next day I tried my best to drink more than 1 bottle, came home and informed my good lady I had been to the toilet 9 times through the day, " You actually counted" was her response. Of course I **** did, it's doing my head in.
Really sad last weekend, our daughter has apparently been telling us for ages she will be moving out soon to stay at her boyfriends, last Sunday she was moving everything out of her room to his...:( I don't remember her setting a date, I guess she is old enough to make life choices but I can't help thinking she is still my little princess, I miss her so much.
Poker hasn't been going to great lately, that means I am due a decent result..happy days
A good friend informed me Sir Tikay had given me a name check on another poker forum, I tried to reply to say thanks but as per usual I didn't know how to a) log in, b) register...so I will say it here.
I was actually replying to a post from a long time friend of mine, who has MS, & can no longer walk. Back in the day he was a tidy poker player, look him up - Mark Herron - but now he can't get about without a mobility scooter. Never, never once, is he anything but cheerful & upbeat. I don't see him often these days, he could not even manage Vegas last year. Does not stop his cheerful countenance though.
I mentioned a guy named "Iron" (short for "Ironside) too, real name Alastair. Another ever cheerful never moan sort.
Lives in Elgin, up near Inverness, & used to regularly play THREE rounds of golf every day. Joined the Navy, had an accident at sea & broke his back. BOOM, game over.
He regained a little lower limb mobility, & tried to resume a normal life. Went to the wedding of his best mate, some sky-larking went off & he got knocked down a set of stairs by some drunkards. BOOM. Back proper broken, spine damage, wheelchair for the rest of his life & more assorted illnesses than you could imagine, spends half his life in hossie.
I mentioned Steve - Ice-Tiger, too. What an inspiration he is.
I think of these guys every day, when I open the Forum & see moaning about the teeny weeniest of irritations & inconveniences, & it's hard to bite my lip sometimes.
My young lady has taken up jogging, & she does these 5k & 10k "Organised Runs". She's woefully slow, but it does not matter, she's trying her hardest & doing something healthy.
We went to the "Winter Run", in aid of cancer charities a few weeks ago. (I'm her "corner man").
Picture the scene, early February in London @ 9am in Trafalger Square. Low grey skies, freezing cold, heavy drizzle, & we had to arrive at 9am for a 10.15 start. There were 12,000 (TWELVE THOUSAND) of us in Trafalger Square. "Portaloos" had been provided, & the queues were 200 yards long.
The race was run with the "rail" of cheering spectators cheering on EVERY runner. At the Finish Line, old & young, fat & thin, abled & disabled, gasped, wheezed & panted as they crossed the line exhausted, wet through. But happy, & smiling.
I never heard one moan or groan all day, & everyone was smiley-wiley & helping each other. It was very moving, to be honest.
We got the train back home as happy as Larry, I just thought wow, the world ain't such a bad place, is it, some grand folks around, taking life in their stride.
And then I made a BIG mistake. I opened the Forum, logged in, to see if everything was OK. Bad decision, that, it was Freeroll Chunter day.
You must be so proud of your young lady Warms the cockles of my heart reading stuff like that, thank you.
When I posted about perhaps closing this thread, part of the reason was what you have alluded to, there are so many people out there who are much much worse than what I am going through, seemed to me I have pretty much run my course from the finding out about my cancer, through the treatment process, the ups and downs of emotions, through to ending my radiotherapy, going back to work, etc.etc.
I consider myself lucky of course to have a loving family, and caring folk on here who have made my life bearable when I am feeling low.
I think someone posted I have a duty really to show that this horrible disease can be beaten, so it would be remiss of me not to post the end game.
I am thankful for each day, believe it or not , I do have a moan at times
Keep posting Tom, you never know, it might inspire just ONE person to battle on. You could save a life, how good would that be?
And yes, I'm very proud of Gill. To be honest, she's woefully slow in these runs, & will always be. But it's a healthy pursuit, & an achievement to even try to run one. She trains every night, & has done 4 organized runs now - Bushy Park, Richmond, Osterley, & Central London - & I buy her a little trophy for each one, get it engraved & everything.
She's down for the weekend this weekend, & left here at 10am this morning for an 11 mile jog. 11 miles, sheesh. She'd never jogged or run anywhere until last June. She had spent 10 days with me in Vegas, we'd gone across to the California coast & got engaged, happiest day ever. When she came home, 3 weeks before I was due to return, she felt a bit lost, she needed to do something, as, bizarrely, she was missing me, & due to time difference & workload, we could not chat every night as we normally do. So she took up jogging.
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That was a tough week, Tom, & I completely get that bit where you were trying to diffuse a Forum situation.
As you & I both know, neither of the two posters were anything except well-intentioned, but sometimes, well-meaning stuff does not come across as intended.
Those that read between the lines well enough will have noted that "loss of self-dignity" thing, which you have mentioned time & time again. To my mind, that must be, in some ways, more painful, & difficult to bear, than your medical conditions. Discussing some of these matters with, say, a young female GP's Receptionist, must be really uncomfortable. If I were requested to, say, "bring a sample in", & then pass it to the Receptionist, I'd find the whole process dreadful.
It's these sort of things which must be so difficult for you. I'm quite sure I could not cope with all that.
Re:washer - It wont be long before they don't even come out and do a diagnostic. They will check it remotely via the internet and if the "computer says no" probably wont send anyone to fix it.
p.s. maybe report the care home?
Good to hear the news about your daughter, Tom.
Arguing with the "it's rigged" sorts? Don't waste your time Tom, they don't want to be convinced.
Thanks Tom.
I was actually replying to a post from a long time friend of mine, who has MS, & can no longer walk. Back in the day he was a tidy poker player, look him up - Mark Herron - but now he can't get about without a mobility scooter. Never, never once, is he anything but cheerful & upbeat. I don't see him often these days, he could not even manage Vegas last year. Does not stop his cheerful countenance though.
I mentioned a guy named "Iron" (short for "Ironside) too, real name Alastair. Another ever cheerful never moan sort.
Lives in Elgin, up near Inverness, & used to regularly play THREE rounds of golf every day. Joined the Navy, had an accident at sea & broke his back. BOOM, game over.
He regained a little lower limb mobility, & tried to resume a normal life. Went to the wedding of his best mate, some sky-larking went off & he got knocked down a set of stairs by some drunkards. BOOM. Back proper broken, spine damage, wheelchair for the rest of his life & more assorted illnesses than you could imagine, spends half his life in hossie.
I mentioned Steve - Ice-Tiger, too. What an inspiration he is.
I think of these guys every day, when I open the Forum & see moaning about the teeny weeniest of irritations & inconveniences, & it's hard to bite my lip sometimes.
My young lady has taken up jogging, & she does these 5k & 10k "Organised Runs". She's woefully slow, but it does not matter, she's trying her hardest & doing something healthy.
We went to the "Winter Run", in aid of cancer charities a few weeks ago. (I'm her "corner man").
http://winterrunseries.co.uk/events/london
Picture the scene, early February in London @ 9am in Trafalger Square. Low grey skies, freezing cold, heavy drizzle, & we had to arrive at 9am for a 10.15 start. There were 12,000 (TWELVE THOUSAND) of us in Trafalger Square. "Portaloos" had been provided, & the queues were 200 yards long.
The race was run with the "rail" of cheering spectators cheering on EVERY runner. At the Finish Line, old & young, fat & thin, abled & disabled, gasped, wheezed & panted as they crossed the line exhausted, wet through. But happy, & smiling.
I never heard one moan or groan all day, & everyone was smiley-wiley & helping each other. It was very moving, to be honest.
We got the train back home as happy as Larry, I just thought wow, the world ain't such a bad place, is it, some grand folks around, taking life in their stride.
And then I made a BIG mistake. I opened the Forum, logged in, to see if everything was OK. Bad decision, that, it was Freeroll Chunter day.
Funny old game.
Keep posting Tom, you never know, it might inspire just ONE person to battle on. You could save a life, how good would that be?
And yes, I'm very proud of Gill. To be honest, she's woefully slow in these runs, & will always be. But it's a healthy pursuit, & an achievement to even try to run one. She trains every night, & has done 4 organized runs now - Bushy Park, Richmond, Osterley, & Central London - & I buy her a little trophy for each one, get it engraved & everything.
She's down for the weekend this weekend, & left here at 10am this morning for an 11 mile jog. 11 miles, sheesh. She'd never jogged or run anywhere until last June. She had spent 10 days with me in Vegas, we'd gone across to the California coast & got engaged, happiest day ever. When she came home, 3 weeks before I was due to return, she felt a bit lost, she needed to do something, as, bizarrely, she was missing me, & due to time difference & workload, we could not chat every night as we normally do. So she took up jogging.