From despair to where? SR23's cash/no cash diary

SR23

Hand. (blockers, innit)

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
RoyalRhyno	Small blind		£0.05	£0.05	£30.48
vellpop	Big blind		£0.10	£0.15	£9.69
	Your hole cards	10 10
SR23	Raise		£0.30	£0.45	£20.43
LENGALENG	Fold
pokermask	Fold
MrsJ	Call		£0.30	£0.75	£35.80
XX	Call		£0.25	£1.00	£30.23
vellpop	Call		£0.20	£1.20	£9.49
Flop
		9 7 8
XX	Check
vellpop	Check
SR23	Bet		£0.80	£2.00	£19.63
MrsJ	Fold
XX	Raise		£2.40	£4.40	£27.83
vellpop	Fold
SR23	Call		£1.60	£6.00	£18.03
Turn
		3
XX	Bet		£6.00	£12.00	£21.83
SR23	Call		£6.00	£18.00	£12.03
River
		5
XX	Bet		£18.00	£36.00	£3.83
SR23	All-in		£12.03	£48.03	£0.00
XX	Unmatched bet		£5.97	£42.06	£9.80
XX	Show	Q J
SR23	Show	10 10
SR23	Win	Pair of 10s	£40.66		£40.66

SR23

Also a hand.

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
DavePS	Small blind		£0.10	£0.10	£17.56
readert016	Big blind		£0.20	£0.30	£28.56
	Your hole cards	K 10
Siabost	Call		£0.20	£0.50	£53.84
SEATO	Fold
SR23	Raise		£1.00	£1.50	£19.40
crlancaste	Fold
DavePS	Call		£0.90	£2.40	£16.66
readert016	Call		£0.80	£3.20	£27.76
Siabost	Call		£0.80	£4.00	£53.04
Flop
		9 Q 5
DavePS	Check
readert016	Check
Siabost	Bet		£2.00	£6.00	£51.04
SR23	Call		£2.00	£8.00	£17.40
DavePS	Fold
readert016	Fold
Turn
		8
Siabost	Bet		£3.60	£11.60	£47.44
SR23	All-in		£17.40	£29.00	£0.00
Siabost	Call		£13.80	£42.80	£33.64
Siabost	Show	A 4
SR23	Show	K 10
River
		7
Siabost	Win	Flush to the Ace	£41.00		£74.64

SR23

... and this too is a hand. All of them from a fun, just-about-profitable session just now. The turn actually made a 'ping' sound in my head.

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
PiiNGUxx	Small blind		£0.05	£0.05	£10.00
SR23	Big blind		£0.10	£0.15	£17.64
	Your hole cards	8 7
loosecamel	Fold
HayleyR27	Call		£0.10	£0.25	£19.18
goodnewreg	Raise		£0.35	£0.60	£9.65
SR23	Call		£0.30	£0.90	£17.34
HayleyR27	Fold
Flop
		5 4 J
goodnewreg	Bet		£0.40	£1.30	£9.25
SR23	Raise		£1.40	£2.70	£15.94
goodnewreg	Call		£1.00	£3.70	£8.25
Turn
		6
goodnewreg	Check
SR23	Bet		£2.50	£6.20	£13.44
goodnewreg	Call		£2.50	£8.70	£5.75
River
		6
goodnewreg	Check
SR23	Bet		£5.75	£14.45	£7.69
goodnewreg	All-in		£5.75	£20.20	£0.00
goodnewetc	Show	J K
SR23	Show	8 7
SR23	Win	Straight to the 8	£18.80		£26.49

Tikay10

Gotta love a middle pin bink. Gives the same buzz as a flopped set on an A high flop.

SR23

Doubled the roll, finally. In truth I've spread about three or four days over a month so it isn't too shabby. But at the same time it's taken roughly a month so it is too shabby. I'm actually enjoying playing poker for the first time in months so it looks like that shabbiness should get carved into further from here. Let's see, shall we.

One for @Duesenberg - I only do this stuff for him, really.

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
SR23	Small blind		£0.10	£0.10	£50.57
SMARTGOAT	Big blind		£0.20	£0.30	£33.88
	Your hole cards	10 J
XX	Raise		£0.60	£0.90	£22.02
SEATO	Fold
SR23	Raise		£1.90	£2.80	£48.67
SMARTGOAT	Fold
XX	Raise		£4.60	£7.40	£17.42
SR23	Call		£3.20	£10.60	£45.47
Flop
		6 9 5
SR23	Check
XX	Bet		£3.40	£14.00	£14.02
SR23	Call		£3.40	£17.40	£42.07
Turn
		4
SR23	Check
XX	Check
River
		9
SR23	Bet		£11.60	£29.00	£30.47
XX	Fold
SR23	Muck
SR23	Win		£16.53		£47.00
SR23	Return		£11.60	£0.87	£58.60

Opening roll: £150
Roll: £304

Duesenberg

I think I'm falling in love with you

SR23

Duesenberg said:

I think I'm falling in love with you </p>

If I torch my roll gaining your admiration, it's money well torched.

SR23

Bankroll purists may want to look away now, but decided to lump in a 50nl table earlier alongside my other blather. It didn't go well to begin with - turns out 3betting in the bb w/42s against a good reg's button raise and then firing here and there DOESN'T ALWAYS WORK OUT.

So, yeah, I spaffed off a buy-in or so just kind of spaffing around and then the below happened. Villain absolutely snapped otr so was half-expecting to see a boat but ... no boat.

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
mongo229	Small blind		£0.25	£0.25	£81.36
FeNdeR36	Big blind		£0.50	£0.75	£126.05
	Your hole cards	10 J
SR23	Raise		£1.50	£2.25	£50.63
onefatlady	Fold
XXX	Call		£1.50	£3.75	£65.80
hhamza162	Fold
mongo229	Fold
FeNdeR36	Fold
Flop
		A Q K
SR23	Check
XXX	Bet		£3.75	£7.50	£62.05
SR23	Raise		£12.00	£19.50	£38.63
XXX	Call		£8.25	£27.75	£53.80
Turn
		Q
SR23	Bet		£15.00	£42.75	£23.63
XXX	Call		£15.00	£57.75	£38.80
River
		5
SR23	All-in		£23.63	£81.38	£0.00
XXX	Call		£23.63	£105.01	£15.17
SR23	Show	10 J
XXX	Show	2 A
SR23	Win	Straight to the Ace	£103.21		£103.21

Don't want to bok myself but life stuff looking a ton better, too. I've got candle meditation tonight; my first lesson tomorrow with a new tennis coach who used to be the Ugandan number 3 (at youth level, I think); a new neighbour who looks exactly like M.I.A; a brandy coffee, cigars and petanque session with a pal lined up for Sunday morning and plenty of other colourful, fun and interesting things to look forward to, including a writing project that I'm about to commit myself to for the next few months.

Readers, this is unusual. I'm actually feeling happy. And it feels like a happiness with foundations. Last summer I remember merrily walking down the road and thinking, "I haven't thought about killing myself for a few days" and had a mini crying session (in front of loads of puzzled onlookers) at the thought of all those hundreds, possibly thousands, of days where suicidal ideation was my little comfort blanket to get me through the daily psychological horror. Brains, eh?

This summer I haven't thought about killing myself at all, don't think it's crossed my mind for months. In fact, I've gone from that to being extra careful when crossing the road/doing loads of things as life is just so pleasant at the moment and I want it to carry on for a good while yet.

Too much? Bah, possibly. But I actually think starting and maintaining this diary has (somewhat) contributed to my overall wellbeing so I suppose I should be sharing this kind of stuff.

But if you just want to see hands where I bluff rivers that's also fine. I've got loads of those hands. In fact, I've got those hands coming out of my ears.


Opening roll: £150
Roll: £375

Phantom66

Don't mind the hands but much prefer the real life positivity. WP.

Tikay10

Agree with the Phantom.

Huge admiration for your honesty & courage in baring all.

FeNdeR36

Never stop 3 betting the Regs light ... they deserve it

Keep up the blog mate and nice session earlier !

MynaFrett

M.I.A and petanque in the same sentence - only in an SR23 diary

SR23

Phantom66 said:

Don't mind the hands but much prefer the real life positivity. WP.

Nice, thanks. It's great to have you around.

SR23

Tikay10 said:

Agree with the Phantom.

Huge admiration for your honesty & courage in baring all.

Thanks Teacakes - it's all just a bunch of neurons floating about being all neuron-y so, yeah, don't mind getting it all out there, so to speak.

SR23

FeNdeR36 said:

Never stop 3 betting the Regs light ... they deserve it

Keep up the blog mate and nice session earlier !

you do the 50nl regs proud dude, hopefully see you tearing about those streets over the next few weeks, thanks for popping by.

SR23

MynaFrett said:

M.I.A and petanque in the same sentence - only in an SR23 diary

Without wanting to go too Mark Corrigan, my new neighbour's definitely the one.

SR23

Tennis lesson with my new coach, Moses, the former Ugandan no.3, at midday today was a joy. Felt like my game improved by about 30% within an hour. Mad skills, Moses, on the ever-so slim chance that you're reading.

The really ace thing today though, happened a couple of hours later. After walking along the beach in the rain I passed one of my (many) locals and furtively looked in. Saw a couple of pals outside smoking. One of them got me over, got me a pint and while outside talking to him/them about two or three other pals turned up. Do you want to do some stuff? they were saying. We've got stuff. And it's really good stuff. Do you want some really good stuff? Then this woman who looked like a bit like MIA (for reals) came out to smoke and was looking at me. I really wanted to stay and drink more pints and see if this woman who looked a bit like MIA wanted to keep looking at me and maybe do some stuff, some really good stuff - if I was to knock up a pie chart of 'Things I Like' it would be roughly 25% 'afternoons in the pubs with friends'; 25% 'really good stuff'; 25% 'women who look like MIA' and 25% 'going on about cold showers'.

Anyway, I made my excuses* and left. Freaking difficult to do, though. I suppose one has to cultivate discipline in the way one cultivates other stuff. Poker may have (seriously) helped in that regard - I've been repeatedly making monster folds lately with barely an emotional flicker and perhaps this has translated into making monster irl folds, as I did from the pub earlier.

Anyway, enough back slapping for now, you'll be pleased to hear. Mini-one for @Duesenberg (I was planning on x/r-ing flop but reckon perhaps bet, bet, bet is better w/bd nut everythings, turn dependent ...)

Player	Action	Cards	Amount	Pot	Balance
Monkey104	Small blind		£0.10	£0.10	£20.10
SR23	Big blind		£0.20	£0.30	£30.45
	Your hole cards	A Q
Theomeg71	Raise		£0.40	£0.70	£26.17
XXX	Call		£0.40	£1.10	£15.20
Monkey104	Fold
SR23	Raise		£1.50	£2.60	£28.95
Theomeg71	Call		£1.30	£3.90	£24.87
XXX	Call		£1.30	£5.20	£13.90
Flop
		4 9 10
SR23	Check
Theomeg71	Check
XXX	Check
Turn
		J
SR23	Bet		£2.20	£7.40	£26.75
Theomeg71	Fold
XXX	Call		£2.20	£9.60	£11.70
River
		6
SR23	All-in		£26.75	£36.35	£0.00
XXX	Fold
SR23	Muck
SR23	Win		£9.12		£9.12
SR23	Return		£26.75	£0.48	£35.87

Hope all your weekends are very fine indeed, peace out.


* "got to go home and prepare for a Sunday petonque match."

Tikay10

Great fold, you were drawing super thin.

SR23

Tikay10 said:

Great fold, you were drawing super thin.

Haha, indeed. Wouldn't have enjoyed looking at my liferoll in the morning had I peeled off a few more pints.

Phantom66

I think the positives in that real life fold can be counted in more important ways than bank balance. VWP.