Had a great avvo.Bite to eat,couple of pints good company (wife n weeman),won a couple of hu's when I got back in.Got a poker book for my b'day.Harrington on hold em.Heard mixed reviews on this but I'll give it a good goin over.Can only improve my game surely?Thx for the well wishes since my last post guys/gals.Much appreciated.Gonna go for a wee snooze now lol.Must be feelin my age ha!!!
Will leave another wee tune now.Not really connected to todays mood as such,just like it(lots).
Dear all.This is going to be a long old read so please stick with it.The 1st post on this thread was about the fact that poker should be treated as a game rather than a reason to get upset and through all of this I have introduced you all to the inner workings of my kids life aka the weeman.I wont bore you all with the ins and outs of it but in the last couple of weeks,things have changed to make me post this.Firstly may I add as a forum member I have been overwhelmed with the response I have recieved since the weemans progress became a talking point here.NOW,to me.Due to recent events I have been takin my eye off the real picture,the weemans progress.Recently.poker,especially losses has become a sticking point in my house.Not in a woe is me,but a why cant improve kind of attitude.I have come to this conclusion.Dont judge me on this but!!The result dosent matter to me anymore.I'm going to play the game for what it is and not a means to an end.Now I have the utmost respect for the likes of devonfish,garyqqq,lambert etc(apologies if I didnt mention someone) but I havent the dedication to do what they do and knuckle down to it.This really stems from my being not quite as some of you may seem.I'm a nice guy(honest lol) but tbh poker is just an escape rather than an earner.Once the weeman and the wife go to bed I'm left with the old grey matter to muse over things.If the missus coud talk to you she'd tell you all I'm a wee bit of a worrier(in kind words).Basically,I'm at my happiest when the weemans runnin around terrorisin etc,but when the house is quiet,I've got into the habit of being the worlds worst worrier,which is a trait I've had from a long time.So tbh winnin a few quid means absolutely nothin to me atm,just havin an enjoyable time at the tables is victory enough for me folks.The weeman n the missus will always be my priority and if poker in the wee hours helps when they are snoozin,then that can only be a good thing.Say hello if you are ever at my table cos you'll never get a bad word back from me.Like del boy says,and I quote"If I have a penny more than I can spend,I'm happy".That is my motto from now on.I'm fortunate to be in the position I'm in with my family life regardless of the ups and downs that may come our way,so losses at the table,.though they may be an annoyance are extremely irrelevant.My user name bignoise is a description of the weeman,and thats who I get up in the morrnin for,go to work and earn a crust for,am there for when he cries,am there for when he's hungry and hes probably the cause of my extreme insomnia lol.You all have posted here before about the weeman and his well being,this is me.Hope you continue to be part of this,as I am a proud member of this magnificent forum and there will be a lot of (hopefully) excitin tales to tell in the future.For another time,I will talk about my plan for the spt dublin.
Here is my song tonight.If it hasnt been already obvious,I am extremely drunk on red wine,but lucid none the less.This song describes the forum.I think you'll agree.
hi Paul i did read your last post last night m8,but as i was tired i thought i would wait until this morning to reply. nice post as always m8. i'm not going to go through details here but i just wanted to give you my feelings here as you clearly gave yours last night.(hope you enjoyed the red wine btw & the 'old heed's not to bad this morning. lolz)
i have had the impression now for a few weeks anyway,that you simply were not enjoying your poker. as you say the results don't matter anymore.i've always had the feeling tbh that they never did at all. you are not'one of us grinders' and probably never will be. you are a family man,through and through,and a lovely one at that,and should be proud of that,which i am sure you are. you have something 'very special',a wife and son that both love you,and need you 24/7. i would exchange being a grinder,and a lot more than £1000 to have what you have.sadly for me,it wasn't to be. (i might one day share 'my story'with you all,but not today.)
my advice,for what it's worth,and i think you already know what i am going to tell you,and what you have already said yourself;play purely for the 'fun of it', it's not all about having to win.i enjoy winning myself,obviously, and if i wasn't winning,i wouldn't play at all. but it's not the same for you,is it? play games,i would suggest low stake mtt's and at a buy-in level that 'won't kill you'. also,look at it this way; if you lose,which you will more often than not,then you have had a nights/days entertainment for that 'lay out' anyway Paul, best wishes m8 'you know we are always here,'
hi Paul i did read your last post last night m8,but as i was tired i thought i would wait until this morning to reply. nice post as always m8. i'm not going to go through details here but i just wanted to give you my feelings here as you clearly gave yours last night.(hope you enjoyed the red wine btw & the 'old heed's not to bad this morning. lolz) i have had the impression now for a few weeks anyway,that you simply were not enjoying your poker. as you say the results don't matter anymore.i've always had the feeling tbh that they never did at all. you are not'one of us grinders' and probably never will be. you are a family man,through and through,and a lovely one at that,and should be proud of that,which i am sure you are. you have something 'very special',a wife and son that both love you,and need you 24/7. i would exchange being a grinder,and a lot more than £1000 to have what you have.sadly for me,it wasn't to be. (i might one day share 'my story'with you all,but not today.) my advice,for what it's worth,and i think you already know what i am going to tell you,and what you have already said yourself;play purely for the 'fun of it', it's not all about having to win.i enjoy winning myself,obviously, and if i wasn't winning,i wouldn't play at all. but it's not the same for you,is it? play games,i would suggest low stake mtt's and at a buy-in level that 'won't kill you'. also,look at it this way; if you lose,which you will more often than not,then you have had a nights/days entertainment for that 'lay out' anyway Paul, best wishes m8 'you know we are always here,' dev Posted by devonfish5
Cheers as always dev.Can honestly say that with things goin on at home atm,poker is just a bit of a release for me.Aint anything bad or the like,just stuff gets on top of you every so often.Its not that I aint enjoyin it,its just atm win or lose(more the latter lol) I'm not gettin the"buzz"Got appointments for the next 5 weeks,so that'll take up my timeand occupy me.The match today should be a special one also so a few beers and feet up time.Maybe in a day or 2 I'll have another stab at a few games,read my poker book etc,but for now I'll concentrate on things at home till they get sorted and possibly come back stronger(miracles do happen ha ha).Cheers
Poker is just that m8, a release from the worries of life - For me, it takes my mind of certain worries and I still enjoy it - win or lose
In your situation and I think for everyone you need to have a release, be it poker, pub, sports - whatever Just something to stop you worrying yourself into an early grave
What I would say is don't let poker be your only escape, speak to the missus - she is the only one in the world who truly understands how you feel - save some time for her - speaking from my own personal experience, it's good to put poker to one side and talk to your nearest & dearest about how you feel about what I call the situation.
If you have not read my diary at all, my situation is my Mum dieing of cancer. We all have our own situations to deal with in life.
Enjoy poker for what it is, a game, an escape, time to forget, take your mind of it for a while
Poker is just that m8, a release from the worries of life - For me, it takes my mind of certain worries and I still enjoy it - win or lose In your situation and I think for everyone you need to have a release, be it poker, pub, sports - whatever Just something to stop you worrying yourself into an early grave What I would say is don't let poker be your only escape, speak to the missus - she is the only one in the world who truly understands how you feel - save some time for her - speaking from my own personal experience, it's good to put poker to one side and talk to your nearest & dearest about how you feel about what I call the situation. If you have not read my diary at all, my situation is my Mum dieing of cancer. We all have our own situations to deal with in life. Enjoy poker for what it is, a game, an escape, time to forget, take your mind of it for a while best wishes Marc Posted by rancid
m8,what you've just posted has just summed up what I've said previously perfectly.I know for a 100% fact that I'm lucky in what Ihave in my life and that I treat poker as a game to releive the stresses of day to day life.Its people like your good self who have genuine issues to deal with that can provide a dose of reality to any woe is me situation that occurs due to a "horrid" runner runner that may lose you a couple of quid.I do talk to the missus and there are no hidden issues ,its just that I feel that I need to release my "worries" away from her nand the weeman.Another story for another time but the early days of the weemans life were a great toll on the family due to one thing or another.Hope you can find some happiness m8 in whatever situation you may find yourself in and for sure ,I'll be thinkin of you and yoyur mother.
Hi all.Have had the week away from the game bar 2 hus on wednesday.Had the 1st set of tests for the weeman re finding out what could be the cause of his "problems".All is good regarding the hearing tests this week so that was a relief.Over the last month or so I think I let myself down by not following the mantra of this thread,ie there are worse things happenin out there and not to get too down with things.Between 1 thing and another the stresses of whats goin on at home atm had got me seriously down and I really had no interest in playin the game that helped take my mind off things.However,after a strong word or 2 from the missus(not for young ears lol) I think I've got my mojo back and have to look out for myself as well as the family.So with that in mind I'll probably get back into it today while the golfs on,(day off work yay).May see you on the tables later.
Mornin folks!I know I probably post a wee bit too much on this thread,but the whole meanin of this thread kicked in earlier on saturday.Weeman took quite ill saturday mornin and got took into hospital.Thankfully all is good and he is now tucked up in bed kippin while I'm on night duties.But to hark back to a previous post where I felt incredibly down in the dumps,this has hit home to me anyway how much more important real life is compared to a game.Was a scary time earlier and I'm glad its over and done with.Had a wee bit of abuse at the tables earlier due to me gettin lucky once or twice but c'est la vie.Will probably be up for a wee while yet so take it easy folks and be good.
Hi folks.This is goin to be my last post for a wee while as I took the decision a few days ago to knock the poker on th head for a wee while,probably till the new year.This is due to occurences at home which require me giving 100% dedication to the wife and weeman.The next month or 2 are goin to be tough,but hopefully there will be a good outcome meaning I can get back to a game or two in the new year.Added to that,the weemans first autism assesment on the 22nd and there seems to be no spare time atm to do anything.So I'd just like to leave you with a big thanks to those contributors to this thread which in part helped the missus and myself to see that "issues" with the weeman wont be as bad as we thought they might be.Hopefully once the new year comes round I'll have some positive news and will be able to share a few more tales.Much respect to the forum and hope you all get the outcomes you wish for.
Hi folks.This is goin to be my last post for a wee while as I took the decision a few days ago to knock the poker on th head for a wee while,probably till the new year.This is due to occurences at home which require me giving 100% dedication to the wife and weeman.The next month or 2 are goin to be tough,but hopefully there will be a good outcome meaning I can get back to a game or two in the new year.Added to that,the weemans first autism assesment on the 22nd and there seems to be no spare time atm to do anything.So I'd just like to leave you with a big thanks to those contributors to this thread which in part helped the missus and myself to see that "issues" with the weeman wont be as bad as we thought they might be.Hopefully once the new year comes round I'll have some positive news and will be able to share a few more tales.Much respect to the forum and hope you all get the outcomes you wish for. Be good all. Cheers. Paul. Posted by bignoise10
hi Paul, hope things go well for the 'wee man' and you all over the nxt few months leading up to xmas,and especially the 22nd which will obviously be a big day for you all. i'm sure we will all miss you and your inspiring posts. come back soon mate and keep us all posted on any developments.lets hope they will all be good ones. best wishes as always bud. (* *) ^ dev
Just cant stay away lol.Got a free night tonight,missus out with mates and weeman up at grans so rather than sit around and mope,thought I'd come on and give a wee update.The 22nd is gonna be a huge day for us all with autism assessment starting.Have to admit,its quite scary the closer it gets.Speech is comin on leaps and bounds.Nearly at 4 word sentences.Gotta say weemans not fussed at all about all the drama goin on,wish I couldsay the same about the missus.Havin a wee go at a freeroll tonight,dont really feel up to a proper game atm.Anyway,will try and update as the assesments go by.As ever,be good all.
Today couldnt have gone better folks.First autism assessment and the words my missus and I have longed to hear from a doc,and I quote."If autism is present which I doubt is at all likely because of adams interaction skills and speech progress,he will be at the very bottom of the spectrum".That people is some of the greatest news we have heard in such a long time.Now theres more assessments to come but we are deffo more happy than this time yesterday.Appreciating now simpler things is the way forward for me and even the worst day at work or on the tables will never get me down after todays news.Life is good folks atm,VERY good.Wasnt gonna be playin much for a wee while until good news came our way,but will give it another go soon.
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i did read your last post last night m8,but as i was tired i thought i would wait until this morning to reply.
nice post as always m8.
i'm not going to go through details here but i just wanted to give you my feelings here as you clearly gave yours last night.(hope you enjoyed the red wine btw & the 'old heed's not to bad this morning. lolz)
i have had the impression now for a few weeks anyway,that you simply were not enjoying your poker.
as you say the results don't matter anymore.i've always had the feeling tbh that they never did at all.
you are not'one of us grinders' and probably never will be.
you are a family man,through and through,and a lovely one at that,and should be proud of that,which i am sure you are.
you have something 'very special',a wife and son that both love you,and need you 24/7.
i would exchange
being a grinder,and a lot more than £1000 to have what you have.sadly for me,it wasn't to be.
(i might one day share 'my story'with you all,but not today.)
my advice,for what it's worth,and i think you already know what i am going to tell you,and what you have already said yourself;play purely for the 'fun of it',
it's not all about having to win.i enjoy winning myself,obviously, and if i wasn't winning,i wouldn't play at all.
but it's not the same for you,is it?
play games,i would suggest low stake mtt's and at a buy-in level that 'won't kill you'.
also,look at it this way; if you lose,which you will more often than not,then you have had a nights/days entertainment for that 'lay out'
anyway Paul,
best wishes m8
'you know we are always here,'
dev
For me, it takes my mind of certain worries and I still enjoy it - win or lose
In your situation and I think for everyone you need to have a release, be it poker, pub, sports - whatever
Just something to stop you worrying yourself into an early grave
What I would say is don't let poker be your only escape, speak to the missus - she is the only one in the world who truly understands how you feel - save some time for her - speaking from my own personal experience, it's good to put poker to one side and talk to your nearest & dearest about how you feel about what I call the situation.
If you have not read my diary at all, my situation is my Mum dieing of cancer.
We all have our own situations to deal with in life.
Enjoy poker for what it is, a game, an escape, time to forget, take your mind of it for a while
best wishes
Marc
hope things go well for the 'wee man' and you all over the nxt few months leading up to xmas,and especially the 22nd which will obviously be a big day for you all.
i'm sure we will all miss you and your inspiring posts.
come back soon mate and keep us all posted on any developments.lets hope they will all be good ones.
best wishes as always bud.
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