Allowing your confidence to take a hit after losing a few buy ins over 4,000 hands is nothing short of ridiculous. You should also put some work in on your mental game because losing over such a tiny sample shouldn't really drop your confidence at all. Nice grind though. Will reply to HHs tomo Posted by percival09
Agreed.
But what can I do. Gotta write how I feel, and for the last 1.5k hands and for about an hour after the grind I felt cr ap.
Sitting in games where I didn't know how I was going to beat the other players without getting good cards.
It's a grim feeling.
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Woke up today feeling shattered too, haven't had this for about 10 days.
Fuelled up on porridge, brown toast, yoghurt, flax/chia, green tea and now.....
I want a nap
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Charity goal for today is 2k hands.
I'm allowing myself to include 5nl SNAP to hit that target.
It's a rubbish aim. And the quality of the grind will also be low.
But it's a day I could quite easily not play at all and spend the day doing literally nothing.
In Response to Re: "Sit & DOHHHHHHH Diary" : Agreed. But what can I do. Gotta write how I feel, and for the last 1.5k hands and for about an hour after the grind I felt cr ap. Sitting in games where I didn't know how I was going to beat the other players without getting good cards. It's a grim feeling. ---- Woke up today feeling shattered too, haven't had this for about 10 days. Fuelled up on porridge, brown toast, yoghurt, flax/chia, green tea and now..... I want a nap ---- Charity goal for today is 2k hands. I'm allowing myself to include 5nl SNAP to hit that target. It's a rubbish aim. And the quality of the grind will also be low. But it's a day I could quite easily not play at all and spend the day doing literally nothing. At least it's realistic. gl me. Posted by DOHHHHHHH
Hi Dohhh.
I understand you are using poker to give you a focus and that is why you are setting yourself hand targets.
It doesn't sound like the best mental preparation for a session though.
"It's a rubbish aim" - "quality of the grind will also be low"
Obviously not playing at all could be a viscious circle to a bad place, but please talk yourself up before your session not down.
If the tables are full of unexploitable uber nits/solid regs then nothing wrong with standing and a bit of game selection either.
In Response to Re: "Sit & DOHHHHHHH Diary" : Ok JJ says a Don post boosts numbers so kind of bated into the reply lol. Very, very hard for me to argue with the above Tikay. Have a friend who sadly is like that, never off the xbox. This sadly in my opinion is firmly aimed at the parents. My mother while she was always happy with me playing video games at home, always encouraged me not to do it out and about. Despite buying me a gameboy (speicifcally for pokemon) she also bought me an adapter that meant i could play it on the Nintendo 64 on the tv. By proxy this meant i got used to the much larger screen, and the much smaller screen wsas annoying to look at. This meant i played games soley when at home when we traveled I interacted with the enviorment the same as anyone else. This is the way I'd personally encourage children and young adults to view video games. However i know this is not the case in alot of cases. That however IMO should not be taken as the norm when looking at video games. We have a brilliant thriving industry that helps youngsters with their development, offers plenty of value for money when looking at fun (admittedly there are some companies who design games soley to fleece people with selling content thats already been bought in the from of disk locked content). But i take your point and find it very hard to argue against the issues raised by you here Tikay. Posted by The_Don90
Hi Don,
If I may say so, that might just be the best post you have ever made, in so many ways.
I don't agree with ALL of it, but that's just opinions - I just think it's a beautifully balanced post. College has been good for you, & I hope it continues that way.
In Response to Re: "Sit & DOHHHHHHH Diary" : Hi Dohhh. I understand you are using poker to give you a focus and that is why you are setting yourself hand targets. It doesn't sound like the best mental preparation for a session though. "It's a rubbish aim" - "quality of the grind will also be low" Obviously not playing at all could be a viscious circle to a bad place, but please talk yourself up before your session not down. If the tables are full of unexploitable uber nits/solid regs then nothing wrong with standing and a bit of game selection either. Posted by Phantom66
Good read phantom, you're spot on.
I actually realised this myself after posting.
I considered going back and editing, becausse no1 wants to read about me feeling sorry for myself after breaking even for 4k hands, But again the whole point is to be honest, and that's the 'mood' I'm in. I'm not making stuff up.
Inevitably, the negativity spewed over onto the table in the first session of the day.
As I just said to a few friends, If ever you are feeling abit low on confidence, or on a downswing, or just not feeling great about the game or even life in general. I would not advise moving down a level and losing 3 buyins in 500 hands
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Going to try and implement the phantom advice.
Alot of the recent upswing on and off the table has been down to an improved positive mental attitude.
Very poor from me so far today, I shall try to correct it.
Its best to be honest with how you feel post session, however you need to care about the long term results but not be phased by short term ones. For me I know I make £x on average by entering a tournament so I dont get phased by bad beats etc as its just part of the game (and probably because I know I will give out more than my fair share!!). I get more annoyed if I am playing bad or get key decisions wrong.
You need to get more confident in the games your in so you feel you are making consistent good decisions. It is just a case of grind hard and review harder! It will have its ups and downs but it will be worth it young dohhlad!
Anyway, I've just completed todays 'charity target' of 2,000 hands.
Today has been pretty terrible, forget poker, it's the worst I've felt in ages.
This on the back of 10-12 really good days where I felt things were genuinely improving rather than it being positive 'feel good' variance. I've been doing the usual wrack my brains, think of something I ate or drank over the last day or so that could have triggered it, but as always, and extremely frustratingly, it just appears to be totally random.
At 8pm I was lying on the bed watching some rubbish on TV feeling zzzzz and had pretty much given up on the 2k hands with 1.5k of them left to play.
So I'm really pleased I forced my Rs into gear and got on and played the hands.
I was rewarded to a certain extent, I've managed to get unstuck for the day after this mornings horror show with a +3 buyin session.
Well done for getting the 2k hands in the other day even though you weren't feeling it. That is the power of creating a schedule for all of the important things that you do - I bet you wouldn't have done if it you didn't have a schedule/goal.
Good to hear you're feeling alright, too - make it 2.5k hands and ja, give him the $5
I dunno what I can write that I haven't already, seems to be the same everyday
There's a quote from someone famous I think, about the definition of being stupid is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
I actually cruised to the 1.5k target, so decided to push myself and try to hit P's proposed 2.5k
I hit that target, and felt really satisfied.
I was up 2.5 buyins after a really tough days grind.
I got given very little free money from fish, didn't really cooler anyone but had managed to play some solid stuff and really grind out a decent graph in what are (to me) very challenging games.
Then I try to push myself some more, as I still feel ok, and the tables are getting easier.
Couple of minor lapses of concentration, peeling 3bets too much, calling down too much, just basically switching off a little, add a few unfortunate/annoying situations and most of the days work is gone.
I know it's fishy to think of poker in terms of mini sessions but how can you not?
An hour ago I could've logged off with something to show for the day.
Now I can't.
ha.
simple as dat.
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Volume target smashed at least, 8.5k hands in the last 3 days means at least the goal setting is working.
I'm now up $30 over 13,000 hands at nl10 on 888 (although the ev line is @ $90. c'mon 888 play fair!!!)
And up $90 over 9k hands on Party (ev line at $115)
So I have a 20k hand sample the same as I had at 5nl, and I think my winrate is around 6.5xbb/100.
I think it's fair to say I've found the level I'm at right now.
I wonder what I need to do to reach the next 1!
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Would need to be up really early to get to the snooker tomorrow, so an hour ago it was 50/50.
The alternative is grind again.
So it's prob now 80/20.
WHERES THE DOHBALL GOING
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lol'd earlier.
Did abit of unibet as I said above.
Opened 4 tables of nl4.
Before I'd completed an orbit on each ( < 24 hands ) I was 3 buyins up.
It’s not that I’m so smart, it’s just that I stay with problems longer. – Albert Einstein
Contrasting advice from Albert.
Maybe he just said sh1 t like this coz he knew people in future generations would need poker diary content.
Snooker won out in the end.
Despite only 4.5 hours sleep.
Probably be shattered later so it will mean no poker.
Looking at setting a stiff target tomorrow.
Maybe 5k hands @ 10nl.
Maybe make it a 2 day thing, 10k over Sat/Sun.
Maybe I should opt out of torturing myself and do something else with the weekend.
nahh
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A rare positive in here of late....
Yesterday was 148 days (21 weeks) since I last had a drink (barring 1 rogue pint)
I stopped counting ages ago, as I aint that bothered anymore.
But as I know I'm going to be walking through Barnsley on a Friday afternoon past tonnes of boozers I definitely just thought about it and it seemed a good idea to remind myself of the above
----- A rare positive in here of late.... Yesterday was 148 days (21 weeks) since I last had a drink (barring 1 rogue pint) I stopped counting ages ago, as I aint that bothered anymore. Posted by DOHHHHHHH
EPIC achievement old mate! May have to tap you for some tips soon. Seriously well done.
I was a little concerned when I was out and about and saw JP had posted on my thread. Thought I may have been in trouble again
Even worse when the wifi crashed and I had to wait 3 hours to get home so I could read it.
Forget 300xbb flips, that's a real sweat !
It is cool to have a sky_ person on board, even if it means I'll have to be a little more careful with the language from now on
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Snooker was abit shhhhi....rubbish.
It's not quite the same without the words of Virgo and Thorne accompanying the (at times lets face it, pretty dull) 'action.
I think snooker as a spectator sport is fantastic, but it relies so much on the prestige of the occasion.
When played at the highest level on the biggest stages it's similar to poker, only half the battle is won on the table.
To even stand a chance at the on table part, you need to have a strong mental game.
Unfortunately in a preliminary qualifier in Barnsley in front of 1 man, his dog, and Doh, the pressure isn't quite there, so its not much more than watching a couple of very good players having a knock in the club.
....just without the beer.
Still it was pretty cool to see a century break in real life for the first time.
Cannot under-estimate how difficult it is to play snooker at that level.
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I realise I am updating here alot lately, I will keep it to 1 poker update at the end of each day for the forseeable. Unless I'm going nuts or something.
----- Snooker was abit shhhhi....rubbish. It's not quite the same without the words of Virgo and Thorne accompanying the (at times lets face it, pretty dull) 'action. Posted by DOHHHHHHH
Where's the white ball going? WHERE'S THE WHITE BALL GOING?
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If I may say so, that might just be the best post you have ever made, in so many ways.
I don't agree with ALL of it, but that's just opinions - I just think it's a beautifully balanced post. College has been good for you, & I hope it continues that way.
Well done you.
Profit = MINUS 67cents.
Good to hear you're feeling alright, too - make it 2.5k hands
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"...Yesterday was 148 days (21 weeks) since I last had a drink (barring 1 rogue pint)...."
I don't care one way or another if you win or lose at poker, and it does not matter, but that, Mr JJ, is great, well done you.
That's the best & most sustainable upswing ever, & the RIO is off the chart.
May have to tap you for some tips soon.
Seriously well done.
He's not quite Ted Lowe..